Hi I havent posted in a while. I have been struggling with my nan being ill the stress has been affecting my blood sugars sending them all over the place and driving me crazy. The hardest part is wanting a break from all of this but knowing thats not possible. Sorry if this doesnt make much sense just needed to moan and I know everyone here understands it.
@AlicePalace sure it makes sense. there isn’t any one of us here who didn’t want a break, or need a break or really, really deserve a break…. but you don’t get one and that’s just how it is. that being said… do something nice for yourself, eat well, exercise, sleep. try to take care of your head, your heart, and your faith. you might not do it perfect today and that’s ok, try again tomorrow.
Thanks. I think I am just trying to find a balace in a way so that diabetes isnt the only thing I am thinking about
That takes time Alice, the first 15 years I was in denial and angry. Thought about it all the time because I was also wishing I didn’t have type 1. After that for me it sort of blends into the background, now at 45+ years with t1 I don’t think about it as much because it’s more of a reflex. I hope you are not a stubborn slow learner like me!
I’m nearly 12 years in. I was diagnosed at the age of 9. My diagnosis was very different to the “typical diagnosis” I was actually very ill in hospital for 10 days and needed two blood transfusions the doctors noticed my blood sugars were running high at first they thought it was a medication I was on but once I came off it my bloods stayed high then was told they will treat me as a type 1. That’s 12 years ago next January
Alice @AlicePalace , like @Joe said, after living with diabetes [I just call it “my diabetes1’ because the label Type One didn’t arrive on the scene until 40 plus years after my diagnosis] for many years effective management will become a reflex rather than a chore. Yet, I feel your frustration and understand what you are experiencing - I’ve been there and now living with damage caused by “denial” and not taking care of myself for too many years. We’ve found that diabetes doesn’t take a vacation.
Perhaps you can find strength from observing others around you, like your nan who with your assistance is pushing on. Yes, this is a source of your stress and tremendous burden for someone as young as you. I wish there would be a magic wand I could wave to create more time for you so that diabetes didn’t occupy all your “free” time - something more pleasant for your thoughts.
Thanks. I guess I sometimes forget that I can be strong in a way diabetes has made me strong
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